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| First of all . . . HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope everyone on my flist had a fun time seeing the New Year in. I stayed in, had a few beers, sat in my room and wrote Faberry until I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. It was the best New Year I've had in a while. Anyway, I was just reading some fic (shocking, I know) and it got me thinking. Anyone who writes Faberry, at least it seems this way, has to find some way of dealing with Quinn's poor treatment of Rachel. Sometimes it’s the main focus of the story other times it’s skilfully weaved into the main plot (and sometimes not so skilfully) but it’s nearly always there somewhere. It makes sense, how can they have a relationship with all that nastiness lurking in their history, they have to come to place of repentance and forgiveness before they can move forward into either a serious friendship or, as in most fics, a lasting and loving relationship. So in a lot of stories (a lot, a lot) Quinn makes a heartfelt, often grovelling, sometimes rambling apology about how sorry she is, about how Rachel never deserved it, about how she'd take it all back if she could, about how she'd do anything to make up for the way she behaved towards her . . . And I agree with all this, which is why the second in my No Halo series deals with the, I don't know, themes of apology and repentance and forgiveness, I guess you'd call them. This particular fic (Edge of Glory) is basically one of those long apology scenes stretched out over 250,000 words, except . . . except I'm doing it wrong, because the moment of apology itself is lacking that happy, glowy feeling all the other apology scenes have at the end. Quinn Fabray: I’m really sorry that I ever bullied you, Rachel. I guess I saw something in you that made me feel vulnerable and I attacked you to make it go away. Quinn Fabray: Was that sincere enough? I hope so. Now STOP cyber-stalking me and leave me the hell alone! See :) It’s heartfelt, but it’s definitely missing something. There’s no sense of a weight being lifted off of them with her words at all! What is this nonsense? *evil tee-hee’ing* This . . . I don’t even know what it is, whining/thinking out loud/self-promotion . . . brought to you by me having to drag myself through another three pages of I’m so sorry . . .’s. And because one of my resolutions is to post to lj at least once a week. Also, I learned the difference between practise and practice today. I’ve been writing for 25 years and I only just worked that rule out. I had grammar practice today. Today, I practised grammar. Did I get that right? It’s a hard one to keep straight in my head. | |
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| In light of last night's episode of Glee 'Extraordinary Merry Christmas', since which Barbra the African Sow Pig has caused some controversy, I thought I'd share this (sort of) relevant snippet with you. It was written Friday, so before Barbra, but may have been slightly influenced by Finn's last meat-related oopsie :) Also, it's kind of lonely when your writing 40 chapters ahead of where you're posting :( I miss sharing everything the same week as a I write it. Mild spoilers for No Halo. Zero spoilers for Glee.( “Oh, crap, I totally forgot Jews were vegetarians!” ) | |
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| I've been useless since getting home from work this afternoon. No attention span at all. I can't even settle into reading fic and I'm in one of those moods where everything I ever written just feels completely yucky and pointless. I can't even try and improve on it because I can't seem to string even a crappy sentence together tonight let alone a good one. Also, my DVD player gave up the ghost yesterday so I can't even aimlessly watch Glee or Buffy either.
I think I've too many late nights in succession and it's finally taking its toll (I think I got my 'it's' mixed up there but I genuinely have no idea right now).
All of this is just to mark the occasion of me going to bed before midnight for the first time in weeks if not months. | |
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| Even though I have to be up in less than 4 hours for work, I had to take an extra minute to post this . . . I finished another chapter too so that just makes it the perfect ending :) | |
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| So I was burning through those words, it was all good until about 5 minutes ago when I hit a wall of epic dimensions - short story, no more words for me tonight :( I'm so close though :P | |
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| I haven't written a thing since Friday night, not even notes. I either been out, hungover or at work . . . mostly at work, I thought the 14 hour shift yesterday was going to be the end of me. I don't know how surgical interns cope with their crazy long shifts. Although I suppose there are a couple of differences between performing surgery and delivering shopping. Anyways, this addition is from Friday night . . . And tonight I actually have a few hours to write, I just have to try not to fall asleep on my keyboard in the process. I'm using my red-eyed Willow icon as a show of how determined I am to write tonight (and also because my eyes look kinda like that right now). | |
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| I had a pretty good night last night. Tonight is my last night off work. Well, I'm off tomorrow but I'm going out to a leaving party and I have a stack of forms to fill in before I return to work on Sunday morning so I can't really slack off or write all day. So, I'm torn - do I go out and grab some beer and write long into the night? Or do I crawl into bed really early and watch a DVD and eat way too much? Or do I fire up the PS2 for the first time in six months and spend my evening on that? I'm leaning towards writing, because last night Quinn accidentally super glued herself to Rachel's face and I kind of want to see what happens next, but its the only option that involves leaving the house, which further involves changing out of my pajama. Hmm. | |
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| I had no internet for other 24 hours! It was awful and I think the universe is very cruel for pulling that crap on my week off. However, the lack of distraction was pretty good for my word count. I've hardly done any of the other 'jobs' I was supposed to do this week and I only have two days off left, but . . . I think if I can maybe reach the 50k before I go back to work on Sunday and I won't feel too bad about the rest of it. I don't know if I'll be able to, that's a lot of wordage for me in a few days but let's see. | |
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| I did everything on my To Do List today bar 1 (Which was to dust my room, but I'll do that tomorrow). Such things included paying all my credit cards (painful bur necessary), Not going out tonight (annoying but necessary, and not really on my 'TO Do List' but it was annoying enough I want to mention it) and bathing Toffee (physically painful (on account of having to squat down in the shower to wash her) but necessary). Actually for the first time ever Toffee was as good as gold. Normally she slinks under my Mum's bath chair so I can't get at her properly but today she stayed right in the middle of the shower with me most of the time - there was one instance when I was trying to wash her back end and she slowly crept between my legs until I was nearly doing a headstand, but other than that :) Last on my list was writing 2000 words and I managed to do a little better than that, so I'm counting today as good :) | |
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| I've been writing all day. Well, apart from my 3 hour nap this afternoon and a 2 hour break to watch Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs this evening. I'm pretty pleased with my progress. Over halfway now :) | |
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| I did better than I thought I would tonight, but I gotta admit I stopped writing MID-SENTENCE. My brain just shut down. Anyway . . . So tired now. But I can sleep for a week if I want to :) | |
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| This is last nights. There's a good chance I'm too tired to write tonight, but I'm going to give it a go. Also, I'm now on holiday from work for a whole week! Yay! | |
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| I only wrote about 1200 words from scratch yesterday but overnight and today I've partially rewritten the 2 chapters that I originally wrote for No Halo, before realizing it would move things along too fast, so that they would fit in to where I am now with Edge of Glory. I'm not quite finished with that job yet and its hard to get an accurate count of how many words I've written as I've added sentences and sometimes whole pages to make it work, so I'm just sticking an extra 500 on top of the total I KNOW I reached yesterday. Tomorrow puts us a third of the way through the 30 days and I'm just over a third of the way through the target word count. All good so far (except I still haven't written any HotSS!) | |
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| This was really all day six because all I wrote yesterday was a bunch of notes/dialogue for a completely different Faberry fic that will probably never see the light of day. I'm hopefully going to add to this now while trying to stay awake for tonight's Glee. And I will stay awake, because call me controversial but I'm actually looking forward to this episode :) | |
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| Fireworks are going off all over. I gave Toffee a good long run just before dark and she's had her diazipan so she's set for the night. I need to go and check on her a minute but I'm trying to save getting my arms all scratched up for when it gets really bad between 7 and 8. Today's word count is perhaps slightly cheating because I know I'll be deleting some of the dialogue, but then I plan to add a paragraph of narrative to a scene I wrote Thursday so it evens out. Anyway, Edge of Glory got it all again. Which reminds me I need to get the next two chapters of No Halo beta'd, because things sure do move fast in the Faberry fandom. | |
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| Most of this was written last night. I just can't seem to write in the day anymore. Once again EoG beat out HotSS, because hot tubs! | |
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| So far. Hopefully I'll write some more later so we're going to count this as yesterdays. | |
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| Well, NanNo started yesterday and I got off to an okay start despite spending most of the night flailing over Glee. I haven't written anything today, too busy slacking, but I'll make up for it tomorrow. Anyway, the word count so far . . . It's all on Edge of Glory, which is cheating because I'm supposed to be using NaNo for House of the Setting Sun, but I can't help it. I'm at a really fun part where Rachel has just eaten a bunch of Puck's cupcakes and Quinn is reluctantly left to deal with the consequences :) | |
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| I wanted to say this via Twitter, but Twitter's not working for me so much right now.
Prologue to No Halo is DONE!
No excuses left. Well, except the fact I've been tired since I got up this morning and its now gone 2am of another morning. Spell-check and beta can wait until tomorrow, but the important thing is . . . It's ready to go!
*chews nails into non-existence*
And I don't even bites my nails.
In other news: Dentist lady hurt me. She didn't mean to, but she still did. Dude, if it doesn't fit the first 3 times you try, its probably not going to fit the four after that. And saying, 'Ooh, we've made your gum a little sore' and then trying to make it fit AGAIN is just plain cruel. Actually, I take it back, maybe she did mean to hurt me!
Also, where was the 'We'? I was just sitting there with my mouth open minding my own damn business!
Top teeth are badass though, which is just as well considering how much they're costing me! | |
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| I've just started reading 'Brave New World' by Aldous Huxley and I'm learning about 20 new words a minute!
It's been on my bookshelf for a couple of years now but I've only just gotten around to starting it. I have so many new or borrowed books sitting around waiting for me to read them. I read loads last year but ever since Faberry smacked my gloriously in the face I've gone back to reading 90% fanfic again.
Still, I'm making a rule that I always have a novel on the go again even if it takes me a month to read it. The fact that I'm reading this one with a dictionary open beside me may mean it takes two months, mind :) | |
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